November 23, 2009 11:08pm

I cant sleep right now jessica I hope I havent sayed anything 2 that made you feel uncomfortable. See jessica I dont know what it is But I cant open my heart 2 you I cant figure it out see jessica when you told me that night at the bar that you tryed 2 commit sucide well jessica I almost did in prison but it was my daughter letter that save me jessica and when I was doing time at (prison name deleted) my cousin commited sucide he had every going 4 him he was a Doctor down in (city deleted) had beautifull wife and 2 beautifull children was making 300.000 a year took a gun and shot him self See when you told me I had 2 hold back the tears that why i grap your hand I dont hold it against you that night when I got home I got im my hand knees and thank the good Lord that you were still here see Jessica I dont know if you know this we need each other in a postive way in a way that we can learn from each other you are so special 2 meAnd I know in my heart we will be good friends 4 life I know it because my heart as told me. You have this gift jessica and God as bless you with it I just wanted 2 share what my heart was telling me:)