November 25, 2009 4:53pm

hi jessica is your day going good. Were are you planning 2 go 4 thanksgiving dinner.As 4 me I will go 2 my brother house. I will go 2 the store tomorrow and pick me up a steak. Cant stand turkey. When I was younger I like it but when I was doing time in (jail deleted) and (prison deleted) morning afternoon and the evening all we ate was process turkey. One day when I became a trust at (prison deleted).(prisoner's name deleted) he was the food service 4 (company deleted). He told me to go in the freazer and get the process turkey out and so jessica. I did the process turkey was rotten spoild and told (name deleted) No ay mi going 2 serve this 2 the inmates. Hell I told me I know we all done wrong but God this is wrong. He sayed serve it or lose your trusty position I did jessica. Sence that day jessica I havent had no turkey that was 2001 . I did about 280 day there and I ate donuts and milk. I wanted 2 share that story with you The holiday are rought 4 me I dont get 2 see my children I havent see my daughter now 4 six years and my twins they dont know me I havent seen they in 10 years See jessica I dont feel sorry for me it my parents I feel sorry 4 they havent seen them just as Long. On (date deleted, but it was about 8 years ago) I lost it and I shock my sons there fine now I was charge with 2 second degree felonys and child negalite. Last night I cryed alont been crying every sence jessica I tell people that I love and I keep close 2 my heart I tell them this If I cant see my children now I will see them when I go 2 sleep and never wake up. See jessica there not a day that go by that I dont think about what I did it was a evil act and I know that My Lord as forgive me and my family But I havent forgive my self. Jessica Im not a bad person. I have never layed a hand on my daughter when she grew up. My Dad bless his Heart never layed a hand on my my mom. I was brought up with a familty that love each other I dont know where I went wrong . My Marrage wasent a healthy marrage my ex was very controling person. You can say I was pussy whip. This is what I wanted 2 tell you 4 awhile It does get any easyer when I tell it well jessica im going 2 call it a night My prayers are with you because you are a special friend I hope you didnt mine me sending you those smiley faces . Have a greart night you friend pete :)